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Busy, busy [13 Aug 2007|12:12pm]
Friends moving, I've been over there nearly every day and night the past week.
Great people. It's like life moves past me when I'm there.

And God, it's a great feeling :)
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You know what? [23 Jul 2007|12:12am]
Fuck the world!

I'm doing something stupid. Seriously. S T U P I D. No chance in hell it's ever going to be simply 'okay'. But it feels right. Logic is telling me to stop. And you know what? Fuck it. Fuck it! I'm not going to stop. Damn logic for once. I'll see how this turns out.

I know I'm going to get hurt. But I'm in too deep to back out. And maybe that's good.
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You Live, You Learn [15 Jul 2007|12:09am]
I've said it I don't know how many times, these past few weeks. I've met so many new people. I wonder why I never visited chatboxes before. People with the same interests who are sort of like me, and people who are my perfect opposites. People who ask questions and make you go "Hey, I never thought about that..." People who inspire you to say wise things. Or just act silly.

I'm becoming a balanced person. It's like I've finally opened my heart. Even more than before, people respond to me. A smile, a greeting. A compliment from someone I hardly know. Yeah, I'm still unsteady and groping around in the dark most of the time, but you live, you learn.

And I'm doing both =)
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102 more! [10 Jul 2007|02:37pm]
I passed the 100 entries without noticing. This is the 103th. How long have I been writing? The journal was created almost 3 years ago. The first entry is dated "11 Nov 2005". 102 entries and 11 layouts.

Through drama and pain and silly happiness, I wrote. Some months more than other months. Sometimes not for weeks. Migraines and panic attacks and creative outbursts. The secret life of a manic creative teenager.

I made friends and lost friends, and that's okay. I wasn't alone. They were there, or still are there, for me. I hope I can mean or meant the same to them.

I've been reading some old entries, and I think I've grown. Especially these last few months, I've learned so much. It's amazing how much you learn about the world when you learn about yourself. Like the world has opened up.

All I need to do now is jump in and let it swallow me.
And I'm sure you'll be able to follow that struggle and that journey and that lovely path here, for as long as it may take =)

To 102 more entries!
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Those Long Days [07 Jul 2007|11:57pm]
I've been doing some reading. Some thinking. Some talking and some soulsearching. Deeper inside myself and I've never been so 'in touch'. Everything is humming.
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